Disclaimer, I am not an expert on diet or nutrition, these are just my opinions/experiences. This also may be a trigger for readers struggling with an ED. I know what you’re going through so if you think this may do more harm than good, maybe skip this post.
Hi friends! I hope that your day is going swimmingly so far. I woke up at 4 a.m. for goodness knows why, then went back to sleep about an hour later (on the couch, while watching 30 Rock). Weird. I’ve decided to push my workouts to the evenings this week in hopes of getting a bit more sleep to help fight this cold battle (I might even skip my run today).
(source) At least Liz Lemon approves of my early morning TV choices.
Thanks for all your sweet comments on my post yesterday, I am feeling better already. My game plan for the week is to hit the hay early, and sleep in a bit more than I usually would, workout in the afternoons instead, take it super easy on my runs, then do the 5K however feels good for me that day.
So I’ve been working on this post one way or another pretty much since I started the blog. Sometimes I will just brainstorm it. Other times I will start writing it and change my mind, but today it’s happening.
It’s no secret that I am trying to lose weight. My ultimate goal is 50 lbs and for the past few months I’ve just kind of been hovering. Not trying too hard and not committing to anything. That’s one of the reasons I was so excited for Kim and Kalee’s Hot by Halloween Challenge. I wanted something to help kick start my goals and get back on the right track.
You can read about my roller coaster weight loss journey here, so I don’t want to retell it, but basically after years of crash diets and my weight going up and down and up and down and WAY up… I am done. But here’s the thing. I don’t count calories.
Call it intuitive eating, being calorie aware, or whatever you can come up with, I can’t count calories anymore. I will admit it is totally a mental thing, I had major anxiety about what I was eating and I was thinking about my calories constantly.
This type of living was horrible and just not sustainable. I was a mess. I would melt down sobbing over the stupidest things, I feel so bad for my husband! I wasn’t enjoying food, and I constantly felt anxious and guilty. I would restrict my calories so much, then binge and feel miserable.
Well after refusing to count another calorie, I gained weight. Fast. The thing was, I had completely swung to the other side of the pendulum and not let go of my binge eating habits.
I knew that this wasn’t going to change overnight, and I knew I wanted to take my health back. But (finally) I am losing weight and not counting calories, and it’s amazing. It’s also great to be involved with such an amazing blog community and see women who are living proof that this lifestyle works.
The thing is, I think that a lot of us know how much we should be eating but we’ve lost that connection between what our body needs and what our brain wants. In Bethenny Frankel’s book Naturally Thin she talks about this as your food voice vs. food noise. Basically your food voice is your body telling you what to eat and when, and your food noise is everything else that gets in the way.
I think I’ve finally found a good balance between eating to fuel my body and not driving myself crazy. AND I am losing weight. I’ve read so many books and blogs and articles that really I know what I need to eat, I just need to keep in mind my goals and act accordingly. Portion sizes, lots of veggies, lean protein, and healthy carbs are all high on my priority list.
But most of all it’s important live your life and allow for indulgences and don’t beat yourself up for living life (and eating popcorn).
Do you count calories? Have you? Thoughts?